Why is that?

And sometimes it’s easier for me to write in English. I’m a Portuguese native speaker however I believe that I can handle myself in English.

There are some times when I remember what I want to say in English but don’t remember how to say it in Portuguese. I don’t know if that is a good sign or not, but in all honesty I don’t care. I like the way I am and the way I think.

I’ve been speaking and writing English since primary school and I also found that learning other languages was not that difficult, specially English.

Anyway, this was not supposed to be a dissertation on my language skills. It is intended to be a simple vent of what I feel or of my existencial doubts. I like to think a lot and also make questions that (I believe) very few people make, about subjects that not many think about.

People ask a lot stuff like: “why do we exist?” Or “what is my mission in life?”. Me… I don’t care. My mission in life is simply to live it. Follow my feelings and do what I want/can. I’ve been told that I should be on a path to become something else that I am not currently. They tell me that I should be walking a path to help others and be like an enlightened soul in this world of darkness.

Well, I don’t feel like it. I don’t want to travel the path of enlightenment. I just want to travel through my own path. If that path leads me to someplace like that, so be it, if it doesn’t, it’s ok.

I’m on a path of my own, where I listen to myself, what and how I feel. And wherever that path leads is not an issue, what matters to me is the present day, what is gone is gone and will only serve to be “lessons learned”. What is coming tomorrow… I’ll see it when I get there.