{"id":1772,"date":"2019-01-31T16:08:38","date_gmt":"2019-01-31T16:08:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.monogatari.info\/?p=1772"},"modified":"2019-01-31T16:08:38","modified_gmt":"2019-01-31T16:08:38","slug":"simmering","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/2019\/01\/31\/simmering\/","title":{"rendered":"Simmering"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>As time slowly passes the dust starts to settle and my emotions that were raw are now slow cooking in a simmering fire. I still get sudden pangs of sadness and random bouts of anger but most of the time I&#8217;m just in a quiet state of almost acceptance. One could say I&#8217;m apathethic and I agree that I might look a bit catatonic, however, deep inside me all I have is a constant feeling of profound sadness and a huge ammount of that very Portuguese word &#8220;saudades&#8221;.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I believe it is only natural to feel like this you know? Sad because something that made me feel good ended\u2026 And yet all that I hear from those who really love me is contrary to this. They tell me that I&#8217;m better off now, that I&#8217;m not the one losing something good. I did\u2026 No, I DO like that woman. And in all honesty, I&#8217;m not going to write why I like her or even why I shouldn&#8217;t like her. That is over-rationalizing it. I&#8217;m solely focused on feeling whatever I am feeling, accepting and letting go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The truth of the matter is that I still miss her, no matter what happened. And, for the time being, that is all that I can feel\u2026 I also believe that this will eventually change and then I&#8217;ll start feeling other things again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>As time slowly passes the dust starts to settle and my emotions that were raw are now slow cooking in a simmering fire. I still get sudden pangs of sadness and random bouts of anger but most of the time I&#8217;m just in a quiet state of almost acceptance. One could say I&#8217;m apathethic and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1772","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-desabafos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1772","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1772"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1772\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1772"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1772"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/monogatari.info\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1772"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}